Her Other Mommy

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I’m sitting in a sterile waiting room.  My fingers miss the keys on my laptop as my hands shake against my will.  I just met my daughter’s mom.  My daughter’s“real” mom.  My foster daughter’s biological mom.

It’s been almost two years that her daughter has been my daughter, yet we’ve never even seen each other, never spoken, never touched.  Each of those things just happened.  My heart and body don’t quite know how to take it in.

This strange woman and I are deeply, divinely connected by the little girl we both love.  I imagine that we’ve both shed tears, smiled smiles, and whispered prayers over this little girl.

In three weeks a judge will take away her legal rights as this little girl’s mother.  In a year, our daughter’s birth certificate will show my name as her only mother. This woman was first stripped of her relationship as mother, will soon be stripped of her rights as mother, but nothing can take her biology as mother.

People always comment how much my foster daughter looks like our family.  We were expecting a different race, different features, yet she showed up with creamy skin and blonde hair.  No one can tell the difference between my little girl and my other kids.  But I can tell the difference.  The green eyes that we can’t trace to anyone, the fair skin that burns in the sun, the thin hair that doesn’t quite match.  I see her in her.  See the constant reminder of my childlike definition of adoption: “You’re my daughter, but you grew in another mommy’s belly.”

There’s an adoption quote that I’ve read and smiled over and shared before: “A child born to another woman calls me Mommy.  The magnitude of that tragedy and the depth of that privilege is not lost on me.” (Jody Landers)  I’ve never felt the truth of this quote as much as I do right now.  This woman that my little girl calls “the other one mommy” is just that.  Her other mommy.  My daughter was carried in her womb for nine months, carried in her arms for eleven months, and will carry her DNA within her forever.

I want this time of sitting and contemplating this to come together all wrapped up with a bow and a clean, easy answer, but I don’t know that there is one.  She’s always had another mom; her story has always been defined by neglect, abuse, loss, and healing; she’s always been destined to be completely, wholly, forever my daughter.  As I walk out of this waiting room, as the judge labels her “orphan” in a few short weeks, and as I sign my name as “mother” on her birth certificate, I will remember and embrace and celebrate all the parts of our daughter’s story.

You can read the beginning of this little girl’s story at: The Journey into Foster Care.

 

This post was written and provided by Jamie C. Jamie is a bio mom to two kiddos, foster/”definitely-for- now-maybe- forever”/pre-adoptive mom to two littles, and short-term foster mom to whichever baby needs a home this week. The 4+ kids in and out of her home make for some light-heart musings and some heavier broodings on her blog, https://fosterthefamilyblog.com/, and as a contributor for the Huffington Post.

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